life is a living hell i guess i made it this way  should of treated her better showed her how much i love her i can never stop thinking about her thought we would be together forever to know shes with another and she would never change that makes me cry went by her house tonight thought i was gona finally say goodbye and take my life maybe thats the easiest way out of this damn pain before i snapped and did horrible undescrible things now im just trying to get away from this place as far as i can maybe ill have something else to think about  god i wish i could end it all now but im not to that point yet but i hope i get there soon i love you  and i hope  i die  in battle and ull never know goodbye